What’s worse than a technology fail? Yep, an equipment fail. As I was riding my trainer yesterday and putting together some thoughts about a weather FAIL, I glanced down at my top tube. And I noticed something on it. Hmmm. Must be some sticky drink or gu stuff dried on there....I reached down and felt it. WTF? It wasn’t sticky stuff. It was rough.....maybe just the carbon clear coating coming off I am hoping. Not the big C word.....crack.
No, no, no. I denied the obvious fact for an hour while I finished up my ride. But I knew. I had no idea how it happened. But I knew what it was. A crack. My heart rate and power numbers went down as my mind started whirring through what this all meant. All I could think about was $$$$$$$$$. I got off the bike and once again told myself it wasn’t what I knew it was. I got a flashlight and looked up close. Crack confirmed.
I spent the next hour crying. This may sound strange, but I LOVE my bike. It may be 5 years old, I may have bought it used, but I LOVE my bike. This bike has been to Australia and Hawaii with me and California, Tennessee, Alabama, Illinois, Oregon. I LOVE my bike. It’s practically an appendage. I have already spent 128 hours this year on this bike (not that I'm counting or anything). But no longer. I will never ride this bike again. Wow.
So in the midst of everything else going on (really just life in general), I have to figure out my next move. Do I send it to Calfee and have it fixed? What do I use in the meantime? Is it really worth sending it off when it is old (5 years) and the maker (Isaac) no longer exists? Will insurance cover it? What kind of bike do I need/want? Coach has given me a couple of options but you start talking about reach and stack and narrow and long and all I hear is wah wah wah. It is too much for me to think about!!
I have a headache. I am still on the verge of tears. I didn’t sleep well last night. I’m trying to come up with a plan - one step at a time right now right? My road bike is being released from its basement imprisonment. I need to put a saddle on it and clean it up. Then I’ll call insurance. And then I’ll figure out next steps.
Make no mistake about it....I am in mourning. I walked into a bike shop with lots of beautiful Specialized and Orbea bikes. I did not look at one of them. Not even a sideways glance or touch or quick component check. I’ll look soon enough, I have a race coming up June 5!!!